My patience is being tested. That is the reflection of the day. Boy, boy, boy! I have been really put to the test when it comes to my patience. I like to explore limits and I realized that I’ve gotten very close to my limits when it comes to dealing with everything that I am dealing with. The preparation for the opening of the testing site at our Medical Center for the Coronavirus, preparation of having to send my daughter to her dad for a few weeks, preparation of putting myself in quarantine because I live with people that are at risk. Being quarantined in my room is definitely going to be a challenge. The stress of thinking that I could possibly bring this virus that is deadly to the people that I love, in addition to dealing with the protection of the staff who are also dealing with this virus at the front line, actually performing the tests. Thinking of the responsibility of ensuring that they do everything the right way, almost put me into a state of panic which is very unusual for me. But I realized one thing after speaking with Gina, my business partner that this is something completely unknown and unprecedented. I’ve never dealt with anything like this. My limit and patience, like many of us, is being put to the test.
Having a difficult conversation with Gina made me realize that I’ve been less patient to the point that even my “Ego” had been sort of acting for a little bit in victim mode. It was like poor me. I’m doing so much I want recognition. But when you are aware of that, it is a powerful tool because then you’re able to be aware, reflect and redirect. After talking to Gina where she was angry at me and I was angry at her, at the end, I just listened to her and she just listened to me without any interruptions. We just let our feelings, our guards and frustrations all out. At the end, we reconnected and were actually very proud of each other because we recognized that during this unprecedented and unique time of crisis, we have had very little disagreements. We have been very connected, even though we’ve been feeling disconnected. One thing we have kept that is a real thing with us, is that no matter what, if we disagree and we are frustrated with each other, we still treat each other with respect and love. It was beautiful to be able to have that conversation. It’s almost like you’re having a conversation and then, you open the windows of freedom and feel the breeze coming to you, bringing you total peace. You say this is fresh air because we are so in sync. This is what I want you to think about. Reflect on the conversation I’m having with you right now and see where your patience is being tested. How is it affecting your relationships with the others that are around you, are you being less patient, are you being less kind, is your ego hurt and looking for validation , are you looking for recognition? It is an incredible tool to be able to get back into centeredness.
Let’s reflect, reset and reconnect.